Thinking about submitting a short story to an e-mag. My level of nervousness is supremely high.
In other news, English Journal #2 for Living Dead Girl. Only a day late.
I usually re-read books I like, but I'm not sure if I could re-read this. I'm not even sure if I like it. Maybe I loved it, but hated what it did to me. Kind of like a person.
Maybe I don't need to re=read it because I'm still thinking about it. It's been a few weeks now, but when something reminds me, all the feelings come back. It kind of bites, because I can't eat yoghurt without my stomach knotting up. Then again, it would be awful to forget.
Maybe I don't want to re-read it. The second go-through is usually where I start picking apart the language, the characters, the pacing. The story then becomes a book, and experience that can be analyzed because someone chose to share it. I'm not sure I want Living Dead Girl to be a book. It feels almost like I'd be holding in contempt all the real girls and real lives the book represents. I've done it before, but I don't want to do it with this one.
Maybe I'm just selfish. Maybe I just don't want to live through that gosh-darned ending all over again. There's only so many times you can walk away disatified Because you're walking away.
Teen writer succumbs to the devastating wiles of fiction. Also available: opinions, blabbering, author-worship.
I felt the same way about this one. It was thought-provoking and fantastically written, and I loved the voice and the style... but the content I thought was unusually hopeless. maybe that's what bothered me about it. YA is usually so hopeful. there was no hope for that MC though, because she'd stopped hoping a long time ago, and that bothered me the whole time I was reading... possibly that's the point of the book, though?
ReplyDeleteI like the way you worded that. Yes, I think that's a big part of it. It's a compelling concept, really, but nothing is scarier than seeing the depth our minds are capable of plunging.
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